Is the Grass greener on the other side?

     Have you ever felt like life was moving so fast and just passing you by? That's how i have been feeling lately. I feel like im not in control of anything that is going on in my life and I don't like it. Things at home are getting better, but getting used to this whole mom and wife thing is hard at the age of 20. I can't believe that all of this has happened so fast.

       All the time i talk to my best friends and they tell me about college life and partying and all of that. Sometimes i feel like this is too much for me. I feel like that is where i am supposed to be. Living life and being a "kid". I mean dont get me wrong, i wouldn't change my life for anything, but sometimes i just wonder. I wonder what it would be like going to classes day in and day out. Hanging out with my old friends and the new friends that I would meet. Partying on the weeknds. Playing volleyball and basketball in college. As I start to think about those things, i also think about all the things that made me not go in the first place. In goi g off to college, I would have to take out student loans, I would have to work and go to school, so i wouldn'[t be able to hang out all of that much. Going to school back where I lived I would know a lot of people. I would meet some new people but the school was a small campus.

      After thinking about all of those things I think about why I chose to join the military. I wanted to get out and be able to see somewhere new. See new places, travel. In changing duty stations you would meet lots of new people. Also, I will admit, having a steady pay check is really great! Plus health benefits. Being able to step out on my own and stand on my own two feet without having to rely on anyone else. Yes I will admit that is does have it's down falls sometimes, but for the most part it reall isn't all that bad :).

    As I think about all the changes that my life has gone through the past 2 years, I am surprised how fast two years go by first of all, I am greatful for making it this far. My life is truley blessed. Although it seems out of control sometimes, I love it, and I always know that no matter what I have Gregg, gabba and my family and friends behind me to support me every day. So i know that everything is all right and I KNOW that I made the right decision!